I think my pregnancy hormones are getting the best of me or something! Lately, I feel like I'm extra emotional-- like I can cry at the drop of a hat. I get emotional over the silliest things, like tearing up when I read news stories and hear songs. I feel like I've also been even more aware and sensitive to all of the amazing blessings in my life. I feel this crazy overwhelming love for Ryan and my baby girl.
Pregnancy can be a test on any couple's relationship I'm sure. The second you see the positive pregnancy test, your lives change forever. Really... it's as crazy as it sounds. With all of the added stress and hormones raging, I feel so lucky to have Ryan by my side on this adventure. He has been so patient and loving. He stayed home with me every night for like 2 months when I was too sick to function, and especially too sick to do anything fun. Oh, and I have only made dinner a handful of times since December, and he never complains. I was too tired and sick to put makeup on or do my hair and he loved me anyway. He even rubs my back every night because my preggo body is sore. He has been so supportive and strong during a few trials that have come our way. He is always so positive and he always helps me to see the sunshine when all I see are gray clouds at times. He is my voice of reason when I have panic attacks thinking of all of the things we need to buy and do to be ready for our baby. He really is such an amazing person. He is so giving and caring for others. He sets such a an amazing example for me to look up to and he makes me want to be a better person every day. These days (especially now that I'm getting fat and feeling unattractive), I feel even more lucky that he chose to be with me. It brings tears to my eyes just thinking of what a blessing he is in my life (see, pregnancy hormones again). Of course we have disagreed on a few things throughout this little adventure...a hum.. baby names.... but it's nothing we can't get through. He's a great man for putting up with me every day! Thanks Ryan for all that you do.
And then, there's the little (un-named) miracle that's kicking around inside of me. Holy cow, if pregnancy isn't a blessing, I don't know what is. It's amazing how much you can love someone that you've never met. It's so fun to imagine what she'll look like and who's personality traits she'll have. She's going to be one spoiled and loved little girl. I am truly grateful to have this opportunity to become her mom and to share my body so she has somewhere to grow. Everyone always says, "once you have kids, you're lives will change forever". I get it now, and she's not even here yet. I am so excited to meet her and possibly even more excited to see Ryan with his little girl (...more tears...). He's going to be a great Daddy and I know he will be an example to her like he is to me. Wow, there are so many things to be thankful for. What a beautiful life I've been blessed with.
Okay, that's the end of my mushy, pregnancy emotion-filled post.
